Today I discovered why I like getting up at the crack of dawn every day.
Such a breakthrough. I've been confused (as have all my friends and housemates) for years... but I finally got it today. And when I say I got it, I mean I will attempt to explain what seems like perfect sense in my head, but will probably just end up sounding like nonsense in words.
So here goes nothing.
I think there is something beautiful about the promise of a new day. It truly is a chance to wipe your slate clean, and for me it's a chance to prove something to myself. It's a chance to prove that I'm worth something. I'll admit that I can be highly critical of myself... one of my worst faults. I think the fact that I can think about each new day as a new beginning really comforts me. So... I think I find comfort in possibility?
I'll admit that there are things in my life I'm not proud of. I've gone through a lot, and it's hard for me to open up sometimes. I'm scared that I let the past dictate who I am today... instead of appreciating each day as a beautiful and sacred gift. I wake up each day anxious to 'make it through.'
We should never want to 'make it through' life. Where's the fun and beauty in that?
So tomorrow morning, instead of thinking about each day as another day to prove myself- I'll try and think about it as a way to become more of the woman God wants me to be. It's just one more step in my journey. Always a step in the right direction, always moving forward.
And last but not least, a little life update with some fun pictures from second semester! (Midterms start tomorrow... it's going to be rough to say the least). But after 2:30, I'm home free and thinking about the DOMINICAN REPUBLIC on Saturday! Stay tuned, it'll be a great trip.
"Be still and know that I am God."