Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Sunrise, Promise and Peace

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Today I discovered why I like getting up at the crack of dawn every day.

Amazing, right? 
 Such a breakthrough. I've been confused (as have all my friends and housemates) for years... but I finally got it today. And when I say I got it, I mean I will attempt to explain what seems like perfect sense in my head, but will probably just end up sounding like nonsense in words.

So here goes nothing.

I think there is something beautiful about the promise of a new day. It truly is a chance to wipe your slate clean, and for me it's a chance to prove something to myself. It's a chance to prove that I'm worth something. I'll admit that I can be highly critical of myself... one of my worst faults. I think the fact that I can think about each new day as a new beginning really comforts me. So... I think I find comfort in possibility?

I'll admit that there are things in my life I'm not proud of. I've gone through a lot, and it's hard for me to open up sometimes. I'm scared that I let the past dictate who I am today... instead of appreciating each day as a beautiful and sacred gift. I wake up each day anxious to 'make it through.'

We should never want to 'make it through' life. Where's the fun and beauty in that?

So tomorrow morning, instead of thinking about each day as another day to prove myself- I'll try and think about it as a way to become more of the woman God wants me to be. It's just one more step in my journey. Always a step in the right direction, always moving forward.

And last but not least, a little life update with some fun pictures from second semester! (Midterms start tomorrow... it's going to be rough to say the least). But after 2:30, I'm home free and thinking about the DOMINICAN REPUBLIC on Saturday! Stay tuned, it'll be a great trip.

"Be still and know that I am God." 
Psalms 46:10


Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Life Happens

Pin It Now! I guess I'll use the same excuse as bloggers everywhere...

when life happens, blogging doesn't.

It's so sad, because blogging really lets me get things out that are on my heart that are hard to get out otherwise. So I'll make more of a conscious effort, I promise. I tend to feel so much better after an update- and I can't help but smile at comments (and even letters) I receive from my followers!

A quick life update: I've been SUPER busy. I nanny every afternoon, often taking the kids home and making them a snack, or going to the library or math tutoring class. It's fun—definitely a new and valuable experience!

Here's one of my girls trying on my sunglasses :) We like to have fun.

I've also been super busy with my Alpha Chi Omega responsibilities. I got back from Leadership Convention in Indianapolis (with hundreds of Alpha Chi's from EVERYWHERE in the US!). Here's a picture of my President and I with our NATIONAL President! So exciting, I've been wanting to meet her since I pledged last year.
I'm in the middle of developing a point system for our chapter (something AXO does nation-wide). It has been one of the hardest and most challenging things I have ever done as a student leader. We are trying to hold our members accountable for their involvement, and I ended up taking a lot of heat from older members which made me second-guess all the change I was trying to support. It made me step back and consider why I was even motivated to enforce the changes...

I guess I came to the conclusion that change is hard. You are going to have people who are going to give you push back no matter what you propose. People are hard to work with, as we are naturally stubborn and like to defend our own interests. As a leader, we have to be aware that we are doing what is best for the most people involved. It takes courage to be a leader, to enact change that could challenge the 'way things are' in order to promote growth.

"But you, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness."
Psalm 86:15

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